Two days ago, I was invited for a one-on-one lunch meeting by our new VP.

My hopes were up and was quite expecting the worst outcome at the same time. My future in this company was at stake and sad to say ya’ll, it’s time to go soon. I do feel nanghihinayang though, ‘cos I really would’ve been convinced to stay for a long long time.

It’s a two-way street, really. I do think it will be unfair to the company if I stay knowing that my heart isn’t here anymore. And guess what, it’s always been a one-way street anyway. At the end of the day you guys, we need a little recognition to stay motivated and to feel valued by people we work with. That’s reality, we want to be promoted.

I am not getting that here- at least not in a year or so. And just like what everyone has been saying- we do deserve better and it’s just not worth it.

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On a lighter note, I told my good friend and co-worker, Nicole about this right after the talk and look! She surprised me with this sweet note and my favorite Kinder Bueno (yumyum) chocolate that lightened things up a bit.

Some people just have those unsolicited ways of comforting you. A blessing that day!

Thanks, Nic. :)

It’s been a Matcha week for me. I’ve been craving for a warm cup for a while now and have bought from CBTL, Starbucks, and Chatime.

Yesterday afternoon, I tried Chatime’s matcha tea latte w/ (just) 70% sweetness. I thought it must be pretty promising ‘cos they had decent and addicting milktea’s to begin with. After skimming through the beverage menu, (and yes, it takes a long while for me to choose and order something especially when there’s a looong list of options!) I thought I ditch the usual and try their hot matcha for a change. (I usually order their pearl milk tea with grass jelly or some lemon and yogurt-based drink, which I think is ultra refreshing after a long hard time at the gym).

Hmmm how do I start? Let me show this collage:

You see, there’s not much green in it. Hahahaha. Well, you guys, it matters how much green I see in my matcha latte, which brings me to a sad conclusion that their matcha tasted like warm milk. Too bland, too plain. For P90, it wasn’t worth it. The aroma wasn’t there, the spike taste of matcha was nowhere found by my sensitive, biased-towards-matcha tastebuds. It was… nothing special.

So ladies and gents, I say if you’re a fan of matcha or simply would want to try it out- grab it at Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. A far cry, indeed.

For some excitement and to cut the routine, why not find and get your comfort food/drink? Feel good, find comfort- you deserve it! Happy Thursday! Oh guess what— it’s a long weekend ahead! Now that’s something to smile about. :)

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READ: Phony laughter | Proverbs 14:1-13

Proverbs 14:13 Laughter can conceal a heavy heart, but when the laughter ends, the grief remains.

What heartache have you tried to mask with phony laughter?
Last month, I started missing my ex-boyfriend. We don’t talk anymore, we don’t see each other anymore, and I prefer it that way. Aside from being my previous boyfriend, he was also a very close friend to me. When I started to miss him, I ignored and denied that feeling and went on with my life as if there was nothing wrong. I suppressed it, afraid that if I dealt with the emotion, I would break down and cry. I didn’t want to do that. Everyday, whenever thoughts about him would enter my mind, I would immediately think of something else. I pressed it all down and hid it at the back of my mind, until one day, I guess my heart couldn’t contain it anymore and I just cried. I asked God why He allowed me to cry over something that I didn’t want to hurt me. He made me realize something. The truth is, we will still get hurt by people and circumstances. We have emotions that are given by God, and that includes pain. However, I forgot that Jesus is the number one comforter that I have. I suppressed the bad feeling because I didn’t want to cry. Jesus reminded me that it’s okay to cry and lay everything down in His feet. He longs to comfort me, but I wouldn’t let Him. I was missing out on the wonderful peace and rest that He wanted to give me, because I wouldn’t admit to Him that I was sad. When I finally broke down and cried, I felt his comfort wash over me and I felt relieved. Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

What will you do to bring your hurt before God and others for real healing?
Whenever I pray, I often ask God to remind me always of His role as the number one friend and comforter in my life. I continue to read and meditate His Word, pray, and obey Him, for I will never be able to see Him as a friend and comforter if we don’t have a close and intimate relationship.
Through Jesus’ model of having a group to go with him (the disciples), I decided to join a discipleship and accountability group. We study the Bible together and pray for each other, but our group is more than that. We practice accountability, which means confessing to each other if we do something wrong, so that we can help each other with our spiritual walk. We counsel each other, encourage each other, correct each other with love, and grow together as sisters in Christ. We also have fun by going to the beach, watching movies, having sleepovers, eating together, and many other things, so that we can get closer to each other. It is easier to share burdens, trials, and achievements to people that you feel comfortable with.

 —Chawen, this goes out for you, dear.