December 2008
the battlefield
I love you.
I love you, Bryan Aldrich Chua.
Santa's mad.
Realized just now how naughty a kid, i am. Naughty, cy.
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“Please don’t give up on me. Because underneath all my mistakes, imperfections,...”
– (via littlemiss) (via coldhearted) (via hushlovehush)
Woot
Airport wifi.
People are such flirts
You just ignored me months ago, right? Texted me often, asked me out, and then weeks or so, you stopped and told me you were going out with someone.
And now you’re telling me that youre sad im leaving. You even called me up last at midnight to say merry christmas (and a couple of more)!
And you, you’re just so good at it. Good thing you’re short and i didn’t like, like...
YOU have no idea.
You have no idea how lucky you are because of her, you know. I just hope for no regrets on your side. Haaay. I’ve always thought your love for her was as real as sunsets.
You have no idea. No idea of how much in pain she is now. And the sad part is, you’re the only one who can take it away in an instant, but has chosen to play blind and deaf. Chosen to leave.
143
Heart, what do you have to say?
Im gonna miss you.
I know we’ll be miles away this Christmas, but well, i like mising you. It’s supposed to help me cope. I know i will, i know.
Lurking Amidst
And so i was randomly asked by Maina last night.
Cy, (short pause) how do you know when you’re in love?
I didn’t know what or how to answer. I didn’t know how to answer. And it got me thinking. I guess you’ll know when you’re in love when you can actually mean when you say it (whole-heartedly and sincerely and with all honesty).
Just like any other word we utter,...
Funny Anger
Its funny how it took me 15 minutes to be sooo upset and angry with you. I swear, i didnt wanna talk to you. I said that. But my heart wont allow me not to. I kept looking at my phone, waiting for a reply.
And there you were, walking towards me, sat next to my seat. And i still didnt want to talk. I tried so hard to keep my word.
But damn you. I was lying thinking i was mad. Too selfish of me to...
Present
Naiyak lang naman ako. Thanks Bryan, you’re so sweeeeet like honey and candycane and lollies and chocolates!
I shall prepare mine for you. Hee.
One of those fucked up days.
Yeah today was one. Whattaday.
ALL BECAUSE OF A FRIGGIN’ CELLPHONE. What evil does technology today reveal. We all depend on it. We’ve gotten used to communicating through a variety of media forms.
Why is it that a day w/o a phone seems like you’re losing a friend forever?
There are just days when you’re just too much or less of something. Today was too much. Too much to...
Napapaisip ako.
Tatlong taon mo akong hinintay. Kahit sa pagitan naghanap ka ng iba, tinangka mong kalimutan ako.
At kahit kailan, hindi kita nakita bilang magiging boyfriend ko.
Pero bakit kailan lang, habang nasa harapan kita, hinihintay kong tumingin ka sa akin. Bakit kita kinakausap samantalang noon, kahit hindi kita pansinin, kinakausap mo pa rin ako.
Siguro nga minahal mo talaga ako, at sanay akong...
“I love you even for those things you can’t have, and someone you...”
– Someday, i will blurt this out to my man.
went to an extraordinary spa
It’s been a year since i had my last massage. But it’s my first time to get a massage done in water. Damn.
It was at ACE Spa i think, in Banawe. I looved their hot herbal pools. Mint, Jasmine, and Lavender. Mmmm. It was just so relaxing.
Haaaay. Can’t wait for a good, tight sleep. Good night.
P.S. I feel dense cos i dont have load, and i cant text Bryaaaan. :| Miss him, miss...
Define ready.
And so Richard was telling me that no one can say they are truly ready. And where is the fun in not having commitment?
Here’s what i replied:
Ready meaning, i can fully commit myself. I have other priorities and i wanna focus on them first. Ready in a sense that i am willing to give up my own wants and needs; ready in a way that i can settle even beyond the confines of my comfort zone,...
missbrightside:
erinshannon:
Womanizer - Lily...
No words can fill for the feel.
When the Words Get in the Way
Ninety-nine down: a one letter word meaning something indefinite. The indefinite article or — would it perhaps be the personal pronoun? But what runs across it? Four letter word meaning something With a bias towards its opposite, the second letter Must be the same as the one letter word. It is time We left these puzzles and started to be ourselves. And started to...
Mind Game
An anorexic mind in a non-anorexic body.
I really need to see a doctor.
Old Flame
Well well well, i saw Dane Velasco and his gf Gab in OMAKASE. Funny, i was with Bryan.
Of all places, we really had to be in the same roof.
I had a great great day with you, Bry!
p.s. i hate it when a guy keeps texting when he’s with me
HINDI AKO NAGSESELOS.
Pero putek, bakit kayo ang partners sa newspaper dance???
Arghhhhh.
Back of my mind: Mabigat kaya siya? ;)
“i love you. and not in a friendly way, although i think we’re great friends. and...”
– chasing amy (via titlepage)
I love you.
And it played while we were in the car. It’s...
in between moments
Three words
to do
for you.
I miss you B
I dooooo.
Jack Johnson- Better Together
And all of these...
Reply to Isa
I guess right now, im not ready to risk. Not yet. I’m still so damn scared. But i guess in time, i’d overcome and finally say that
i am ready.
Until then, i’d wait. ;)
Goodnight Note
My heart is open. I can finally say that yes, it has been penetrated. Not deeply though. But it is. That’s the point.
Like Sab, i’m scared. For many times, i’ve been out there. Laying the cards on the table. Vocal. Honest. But from the last heartbreak, i swore not only to my friends and those who care, but myself, that i’d put my guard up again in case another comes up.
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What could this mean?
I’ve been encountering the numbers 143 in digitals.
1143
143
1043
What not? Maybe God is telling me something. Or maybe i’ve been thinking too much about it.
Recession Diet
1. Chicken Wrap 2. Pizza Slice 3. Baked Mac 4. Ice Cream 5. Caesar Sandwich 6. Beefsteak and Spanish Sardines 7. 3 pieces of bread with butter 8. Papaya
How’s that? NO BINGE EATING TOMORROW.
Nakakainis ka Gio.
Bakit hindi mo sinabi na aalis ka na sa 26?
At March ka pa babalik. Mamimiss kita seryoso. :|
“Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is...”
– Charlie Kaufman Synecdoche, New York
(via turquoisebird)
Just what i needed. A dose of beautiful insights.
Gossip Girl has depth!
Blaire: What do we have, Chuck? Tell me.
Chuck: Tonight. So, shut up and dance with me.
Aside from the ultra-mushy-cheesiness of the lines, i actually thought it meant some things every human being ought to know.
That sometimes, all we have is a bit of something. Like a moment of silence to recall a thought. Or a sunny day to have a hearty breakfast with someone close to you.
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