If you love someone, ask them for nothing. Don’t hold them back from their destiny. Don’t keep them from going off in search of their own answers. Don’t ask them for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don’t ask them for promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart when the right time for promises has come.
And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.
But should they not return to you, then life hasn’t cheated you because no promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored your life, that knowing them has already made life infinitely more meaningful.
By setting a person free, you run a risk of them not returning. But always remember that you found them beautiful precisely because they were free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can’t hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People CHOOSE to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options. Love has no restrictions and it is through mistakes that sometimes we see the right answer. Because if you love someone, you ask them for nothing and they will come back to you.
One day, Isa, it will come back to you. Not because you held on, but because you let go. Not because you stopped loving, but because you continued to. One day, he will come and you will be the happiest girl alive.
From the moment i knew you, i’ve not been minding hours and hours i spend just talking to you or being with you. I thought everytime we’d talk, nothing seems to be out of beat. Patches of silence are not awkward at all, instead, they turn out to be the most comfortable and calming fillers in supposed gaps or pauses in between. I enjoy nothingness with you and that’s something.
You take my breath away, too.
Whenever unexpected words come out of your mouth, i go deaf and start feeling straight from the heart as if it was the first that heard each word. The moment i step in my car, i start missing you. Until i reach home and set foot on my doorsteps, still, i catch my breath. I’m kept breathless, and in ticks, i start inhaling the whole of you into me again- and i continue breathing.
But most of all, you give so much room in me for growth, so much room in me to grow closer and in love with Christ. You make me see things positively, making darkness glow in depth and substance. It’s like this. Imagine yourself enveloped by blackness and you see a hint of light amidst.
Perhaps you are more than just what i think you are to me. I feel you are.
And if it will take long for me to say i love you in its utmost essence and truth, then i am willing to wait, ‘cos i know that God has a plan for us- bigger than what we have for ourselves. And if the moment comes that we both know what love truly means to us, then without second thoughts, i’d fight with armor and live out the love i have for you. Years, or so, as long as He wills it.
I miss being with you. But i don’t hate being away from you.
Good night, my little bright star. I know that when i wake up in sunshine tomorrow, you’d still be there. Your remnants, shedding light on me- a different, perhaps the most comforting warmth beneath the sun’s light and heat
crashing on me, covering the whole of me even before the first ray of sunlight dampens my skin.
Just a few days back, Bryan and i had a conversation about his so called “limitations”, as dictated by his parents. Yes, he can not date yet. He can not have a girlfriend. And honestly, i felt a bit scared because first of all, if ever i’d be in a relationship, a serious one at that, i’d rather have it legit. But well, ours isn’t yet. At least on his part.
But i said that if God really wills it, the parent thingy would be no problem. Things will fall into place if the “Bry and Cy Romance” is part of His big plan for the both of us.
A little background first though: his dad being Chinese-centric, his mom being Christian-centric, got it? You know, breaking the Great Wall is tough, i thought. And how the hell am i supposed to convert into Born Again?
In short, i am none of what his parents wanted. The non-negotiables are obviously against me.
But with a twist of fate, He did pave for things to happen the exact way they’ve just been written in our hearts.
He finally told his parents after his sister blurted that he all ready has ka-MU in school. His parents, (thank God) after being told about me, eventually understood. And they’re both okay with me, and us.
You see, it’s finally happening to me. I’m just so excited and blessed!
I can’t stop liking you. You make me feel like a princess and a friggin’ beggar at the same time. I like you because you tell me to eat if i don’t, because you gave a bottle of water for training, because you noticed the tiniest scar on my hand and still held it, because your palms sweat just as bad as mine, because you randomly call me just to say you miss me (and you just wanted to hear my voice), because you make me happy, because you put effort in seeing me everyday, because you say good morning and good night, because you wanna watch my competition, because you get a little jealous but still trust me, because we talk about God, because you’re open to me, because even if you dislike peanutbutter you still ate the Reese’s i gave you, because you’re down-to-earth, because you hug me, because you stare at me and it seems like whenever you do i feel like you’re seeing the whole of me, because you drive for me even if i can drive for myself, because you wake up so early in the morning just to have breakfast with me or walk me to class, because you always forgive me for mocking you at times, because you always ask how i am without nagging, because you simply have the right mixture of things i’ve seen in different guys, because you put a smile on my face,
because i could go on and on with this,
and because as i reach the end and have nothing left to say,
I was with Cheska Garcia a while ago in a shoot for her show, along with Angel Aquino and Iya Villana.
It was about guy-girl bonding. Mark suddenly called me up earlier to go with him, and so i did. Spontaneous, but well, i got a thousand worth of gift certificate, a free facial cleaning and pedicure (which i wasnt able to avail ‘cos i had to go back to training at 430).
“I’ve been making a list of the things they don’t teach you at school. They don’t teach you how to love somebody. They don’t teach you how to be famous. They don’t teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don’t teach you how to walk away from someone you don’t love any longer. They don’t teach you how to move on when the one you love walks away from you. They don’t teach you how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind. They don’t teach you what to say to someone who’s dying. They don’t teach you anything worth knowing.”
I feel deeper about you Bryan, i do. Everytime we talk and share stories, everytime you randomly call me, i feel like it is filling my heart with so much joy and content. It’s been years since my last real relationship, and to be honest, i’ve once forgotten what it feels like to fall in love. To be in love. To love, like every human being could ever do.
Right now, i feel my heart opening up to a new feeling, or rather, to something i have felt in the past. Maybe better. Maybe somehow different in many ways.
Right now, i feel like i am giving you the opportunity to hurt me. Yes, even without intent to do so.
But that’s about it, ‘cos you know what, i’ve got faith in the Lord that He let me meet you for a reason. And that could be you, reminding me what love is like.
And although i have not come to a conclusion that i do love you, i feel like i am actually close to feeling hints of it. I feel so peaceful with and without you. I feel like my own self with you, no pretenses. I feel so joyful and thankful.
Thank you for making me closer to Him, for extending His great love for me. Thank you because my faith has just gotten stronger. I tell you, that’s the best thing a man could ever make of me.